sometimes i feel so despondent and weak. i used to be so alive.

i miss performing more than anything in the world. i miss being on stage, taking in the feel of the crowd. the feeling of waiting by the wings listening in as the crowd streams into the arena. and as the lights dim, my heart beats faster. i'm ready to step out into the world.

somehow when i stopped performing (be it performing in a band or dancing), i feel like a part of me died.

i miss dancing. the endless rehearsals. the torture of strained muscles. months of practice just for one 5 minutes segment. it's worth it.